Tea and Honey Tuesday: Vol. 2
Welcome back to the second volume of Tea and Honey Tuesday! Am I writing this while enjoying a nice warm cup of tea and a helpful dollop of honey? Yes, yes I am. Mate Cocido to be exact, and my heart is happy :) . I hope you have some nice tea to cozy up with as you read this, if not, go and grab some! To me, tea gives life’s moments the picturesque version of simplicity, and it just tastes so good! Emma Thompson’s character in the movie Saving Mr. Banks said “tea is balm for the soul”, I don’t think anyone else could have put it better.
Anyways, I should talk about my music life now, since that’s what this blog is for. As some of you may know this past Saturday night I had my third show at Genghis Cohen in West Hollywood. Thank you to everyone who made it a great turnout! I’m so happy to say that the show was a great success! I’ve been working with my musician friends for over a year now, and I can’t tell you the joy I felt when that night I could see my guitarist and drummer truly enjoying the music they were playing. It’s all I want to create: music that people desire and love to play. I don’t doubt that they’ve had fun throughout this past year of learning the material, but to know that they are now well-versed in the music and can let loose and have fun performing with me was such a great moment in time. It’s strange, because it was as if the realization hit me in slow-motion. Leo’s face was all scrunched up in that classic rock and roll style as his fingers shredded effortlessly over his guitar. I couldn’t really look back at my drummer Lucas, I was avoiding the act of turning my back to the audience (I guess that one time the drama teacher came into my class and told us to never turn our backs on an audience stuck with me, though it doesn’t really apply to musical performers, now that I think about it), but I could feel the energy he was emitting through his drum set. And Mark, my dear bass player, is always rocking out and wears the coolest shades onstage, so that was a given. We were pumped, and agree that it’s been our best show yet.
Even listening back on the audio that my father recorded (God bless that man, for none of this would be happening without him) I was very happy with our sound, and only slightly cringed at my dialogue in between sets! All I’m saying is, if you ever come to a show of mine, keep the cameras rolling because it is likely that I could say something embarrassing. I like to share stories about the songs I write, but I never think about what I’m going to say during my dialogue portions of the set, so, it’s always a lot of fun for me and for my hearers, I’m sure. I don’t have a filter; I’m a gushing fountain of truth, enjoy!
I finally was able to eat the food served there before our set! The steamed sole filet is stellar, I highly recommend it if you find yourself there. Yeah, I’m getting off-topic I suppose, but food is food, and I’m going to share the gift of good food with you whenever it is in my power to do so!
These past two weeks I’ve learned something, and my show the other night only confirmed to me what my struggle with practicing and honing my skills in music is: I am afraid of failure. It’s this fear that frustrates me when I am trying to learn a new lick or get that certain strumming pattern in line. I want to be the best I can be for you, for those who listen. I pick up the guitar or ukulele, and I have a skill level in my mind that I want to be at, and then I realize the effort and time it could take me to accomplish that goal, and it discourages me from working at my craft. I want my progress to be instantaneous, because I believe that the time for me and my music is now, and I get afraid when I feel that I’m not the best I can possibly be at the time I need to. My perspective of the big picture had overwhelmed me because I was looking at it the wrong way. I am so glad to be aware of this, because now I’m learning to pace myself and take it day by day, little by little. And I’ve also learned another beautiful thing about music while having a conversation with my father. I’ve learned that music is a journey, and it carries on with you in your lifetime. It is a lifetime pursuit, and it’s so exciting for me to grow and be a part of that journey. Ugh, I’m cheesy again, but it’s the truth! I’m sticking with it! This mindset is helping me to see the big picture, and instead of being overwhelmed by the possibilities, to understand that the big picture involves a lot of little goals and accomplishments along the way, and I’m looking forward to living every moment of it.
Thank you for reading, and thank you to those who have given me constant encouragement in my pursuits, be it by coming out to my shows or simply letting me know that you appreciate the dreams I’m striving to make a reality. You are all very dear to my heart. You’ll soon hear about Bathtub the horse, for those who are wondering. Until next time!